This past week has been a huge sigh of relief.

God has answered so many prayers as I got accepted to NYU Law, my top choice school, and received a surprisingly generous scholarship.  Not only will I stay in the city that I wasn’t ready to leave, but I will also be (fingers-crossed) studying under the professor who has inspired me to pursue this career path.

After my friends have been congratulating me about getting in, I graciously cheered along with them and asked (semi-jokingly), “Wait, does this mean I actually have to go to school now?”

I started this journey, looking towards each step as a short-term goal in isolation for the sake of not getting overwhelmed.  First step was taking (and doing well) on the LSATs, the following step was applying to schools, the next step was figuring out all my financial aid issues, and now I’m at the step of getting accepted.  Accomplishing all these steps, I didn’t have too much time to dwell and get freaked out about the thought of actually attending school.  And now it’s hitting me hard. All the doubts are seeping in full-fledged speed as I’m going to endeavor the hardest years of my academic life.  But even in the midst of my concerns and anxiety, I felt affirmed and convicted this week as I had some pivotal conversations with people in the legal field who are loving their work (I found this a rather rare disposition among lawyers) and were extremely encouraging about my upcoming career shift.

From today’s John Piper devotional:

“Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.” (Matthew 5:5)

Meekness begins when we put our trust in God. Then, because we trust him, we commit our way to him. We roll onto him our anxieties, our frustrations, our plans, our relationships, our jobs, our health.

As I start to pursue this career, I should keep these words in mind and carry them close to my heart.  Most people probably wouldn’t associate the characteristic of “meekness” with lawyers. And though law school might carry my head into lofty territory, I have to keep humbling myself to a place of surrender.  I didn’t get to where I am merely out of my own strength and aptitude. Ultimately what I do with my career, the people that I meet, and the ways I can help them are not (at least entirely) in my control.   I can only put my best foot forward, and God will take care of the rest.